your mum

london
i love this city! it's interesting. it's sophisticated. it's awesome. it's exilarating. it has harrods. it has hamleys. it has soho. it has boots. it has starbucks. it has piccadilly circus. it's just utterly facsinating. bigben. london eye. tower of london. tower bridge. the parlament. it used to have starlight express. it has fashion. it has culture. people. alternativity. it's amazing.

i haven't been there for like.. 3 years or so. i really want to go there again. i'd walk down along the thames. look at the small booths. i love that feeling.

i want to go looking in harrods. even though i can afford a thing in there - i just love being there. i love the langue. i love the atmosphere. i love london

love

it sounds weird, but i love love. and at the same time i hate love. because it's so confusing. one minute you can be totally overjoyed and the next you can be crying. it's weird. it's like.. i'm totally addicted to feeling loved. if i don't feel like my boyfriend loves me, then i'll completely go down. but then all he needs to do is look into my eyes - maybe put his arms around me - and i feel like i'm flying. it's kind of scray because it means that he can totally control how i feel. if he looks sad or he says something to me in an angry or annoyed tone, i feel like my whole world is about to fall apart. it's a bit exagurrated but you know... anyway. and if he just smiles at me then everything is amazing. even better - if he comes over to me, puts his arms around me, looks deeply into my eyes, kisses me and then say "oh babe, you're amazing".. i feel like i could explode of happiness !!!

ok sorry - enough rambeling about my boyfriend XD

being bored

people say that only smart people get bored. and that it's healthy to be bored. i think that at least the last one is very true. i've come up with sooo many good ideas and stuff, when i've been bored. it's boring to be bored and you don't like while you are bored but afterwards you can see that you did some fun stuff.

blogs

blogs are a weird thing. i have a blog because i think tomuch and need to put my weird thoughts out somewhere. some people do blogs about one specific subject. politics. fashion. music. movies. and so on. others just write about every day stuff. i don't know. i write what comes to mind. i'll probably put both my ramblings and my novels in here. maybe even poems and song lyrics too. if i feel like it.

POSTKORT TIL DANMARK

Jeg sad på Måndefiskeren og kiggede på livet i solskinnet.

Jeg så drankere på vandvognen og bumser med sol i sindet.

Jeg så grønlændere og afrikanere - nordmænd og indianere.

Jeg så mange med smil på læben men ingen af regeringens medlemmer.

jeg så ingen kontor-domiciler ingen varehuse parkeringspladers eller biler.

Folk cyklede og færdedes til fods.

Jeg så huse af træ.

Jeg så vand siv og stjerner.

Jeg så den svævende gangbro som fører ind isommerens løvskjul.

Jeg så forårets grønne skud og efterårets mudrede stier.

Jeg så de sneklædtevolde der gør København smuk med vinter.

Jeg så en by i byen.

Med tårne og trapper så fuld af omveje som sindets labyrinter.

Og jeg spugte en kvinde som kom forbi:

Hvem ejer alt dette?

Hun svarede

Det gør du.

Gorm Henrik Rasmussen

CHRISTIANIA

APRIL

2004

bacon
bacon is epic. totally. but damnit dont ruin the bacon by making it with something not pork! bacon is made with pork. a pig. seriously !!
ok.. enough of the bacon talk :b

I've been waaaay too passive here on my blog and now I wanna change it. lol.

the name.
the blog name. "thoughts of a dirty rotten teenage whore" has a story behind it. first of all. it's my thoughts. the teen whore part is half-explained longer down this site. and the dirty & rotten part... well my mind is dirty xD and rotten isjust cause I'm dont think my thoughts are too mainstream.

parents.
i've mentioned this a small bit before. parents are weird. i'm watching this thing about ozzy osbourne right now. imagine having him and sharonfor parents.oh my god :b it'd be totally freaking crazy!! it would be weird. dude having the Prince of Darkness as your dad. and it's not like sharon is any less weird. but it'd be cool!!!!!!!! totally. i'd be stoked. but maybe its just the things we see on tv xD

colour.
i really wanna dye my hair! i've wanted to for soooo long.i've had like..9 or 10 different haircolours the last 4 years :b and i totally want a new one.i've had this caramel brown / dishwash blondish hair for too long !! and i cant wait tilli dye it. i'm gonna get a nosepiercing too :D i cant wait. it'll be so hott. !! yayness and cookies all around !

Integration

Ouch. That's one big subject, huh?

We had this discussion in my class a couple of days ago, about integration. And hell, do I share class with a lot of conservative people.. It makes me sick.But LUCKILY !! some of them are'nt conservative. And there were said quite a few clever things.

For example, one of the guys in my class said this thing that will forever be my argument against people who says the immigrates are to blame for everything and that they should just become more integrated.
He said: "you can't integrate someone in a soceity that will not let you be integrated"
That, my friends, is brilliant ! And so so true.

I live in Denmark, and we do have some good things. But the Danish Goverment has become more or less controlled by a party called The Danish Peoples Party. (It sounds good right? Like, yeah they'll represent all of Denmarks people. And yeah they do, in their own oppinion... & If you wanna know more about them - look here http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Danish_People%27s_Party)
Now, I think it was about a million people who voted for them last time we had an election. And a friend of mine said something also clever.
"If a million people voted for The Danish Peoples Party, that means there is a million racists in Denmark"
It is of course not interly right. Of course not everybody who voted for them is a racist but most of them sympathiezes with their integration politics. And to me, that is pretty damn scary.

(Everything I'll say know is generalized and totally MY oppinion and not everybody agrees with me, but I need to get it out of my system)
This partys chair woman, Pia Kjærsgaard. She is freaking scary. The woman is probably the biggest foreigner-hater ever. She is.. (like omg xD).. she is totally totally racist and if she could control Denmark, only people with "nice" pink skin, who speaks perfectly Danish and who know EEEEEVERYTHING about Denmarks history, every old movie ever made and all that, would get to live here.
In a collaboration with The Conservatives(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Conservative_People%27s_Party_%28Denmark%29) and Venstre(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Venstre_%28Denmark%29), the two other goverment parties, they've made this test you have to take when you want to immigrate into DK. (it's called The Danishness Test). Unfortunatuly I can't give you a link to it in English - only Danish. http://www.radikale.dk/cms/vis.aspx?aid=67852

It is all theese weird questions about Denmarks history, cultures, and all. There is 200 questions. you have to answer at least 40 and HAVE to get 28 (out of 40) correct. That's an answering procent of 70%.. I took this test... I couldent do it. I wouldent become Danish if I tried to immigrate. And you know what? I've lived in Denmark my whole life. My parents are danish (and they could, by the way, answer quite a lot of the questions :b).. It's sickening. And I wanna stop thinking about it now. Let's move on :D

A guy from my class, whom I always have quite heated discussions with because he's such a right-winged conservative (and racist) pig, he actually described it really good. (I almost fell of my chair. He agreed with me on something too :o).. He said that when you immigrate into another contry it can be compared to when you live in one house most of your life, you learn to live by all the house rules and so. Then you choose or are forced to move into another house with other people and they have all theese new houserules you have to follow. But you are a guest in their house and therefore you have to follow the rules.. and now this is where I stopped agreeing with him because then he talked about that they should change their own rules and blabla. I stopped listening because he made me feel sick again.
But for some seconds there I was quite happy with this pictures he'd painted.
They are guests in out house and must of course follow our "house"rules.
But there is another side to it that he forgot. You have to treat your guests with respect and you have to help them feel comftable. And damn do we lack that in Denmark.

(I'll finsh this later. I'm too damn tired xD)

Such a simple little whore

"In every circle of friends there's a whore
The one who flirts
And does a little more
But who's to say?
This is a social scene anyway
And everybody wants to explore the new girl
Caught up in her own hard liquor world"
- Newport Living - Cute Is What We Aim For

What makes you a whore? Is if if you're cheap? Cause that's how most people use the word whore.
And how cheap is cheap anyway? How far do you have to go to be cheap? Or how much do you have to do?

To me, being cheap is not so much how much you do or how far you go, it's more how you act about it. A lot of people probably consider me cheap, but in my own oppinion I'm not really. I have done thing of which I'm not proud, and I've crossed a few lines. But I admit it, and I don't feel like I'm better than others just because I've been with so-and-so many guys, just the oppostie, I feel a bit ashamed when people mention it. That is, to me, how you should act, because having been with a lot of guys and all, it's not that cool. It just is'nt.
As on the matter of how far you have to go. I don't think it's cheap to make out with a guy the first time you meet him (I'm talking about when you're at a party or something).. Neither is letting him feel you up a bit. I might even think that sleeping with him is okay. (I don't know if that makes my standarts pretty low, but that's just how I feel). I don't mind one night stands. Maybe what is cheap is when you, for example, make ouy with more than 1 guy in a night. (Let's not even talk about sleeping with more than one in a night)

Now, to look at the things from another perspective, how about feeling cheap?.. is that just the worst thing in the world?
I can't tell you how many times I've woken up, thinking "What the hell was I doing last night?!" and feeling really low. And having to face the guy(s) you've been with, afterwards is even worse.. You feel like saying "Yeah, sorry I was like waaaay too drunk. I did'ent mean to go the far".. And damn a lot of guys are bad at handeling it xD It's almost hillarious. Once, this guy thought he would be really nice(so so ironic meant), so he wrote a textmessage to me, 3 days after we have been together, saying that he loved me. xD

(Will be continued later, my dad is like. flipping stupid.)

Laughing no matter (what)

There are alot of things that should'nt be laughed at.
You should'nt laugh at handicapped or people who look different. You should'nt laugh at other peoples misfortune. But what really matters today is what we actually should laugh at. Or better, what we can laugh at. Because to me, we live in a world with not much to laugh at. There's war. People are starving and all over the world people suffers from psyical and mental diseases. And that's not to be laughed at. At all. But I think that maybe, just maybe, we should live up a bit. Laugh at the people who are making the war.
Go to the White House and laugh at Bush. Laugh at him, because he is so stupid that he would create a war.
Laugh at the people who will not help the starving men and women, laugh because they can be so unhumane and maybe they'll laugh with you because they realise how stupid they are.
And I agree, you should never laugh at sick people. Laugh with them. Brighten their day by laughing with them.
Laughter creates endorphines (or something) in your body that makes you happier.
Make people laugh. And laugh with them.

Power of...

I guess being powerful means to feel that you have power. But when I hear the question "what makes you feel powerful?" it's not what makes me feel in charges. It's more like what makes me feel like everything is OK. Not so much that I can control things or have to power to. But just that I don't have to because it's already okay.
And what makes me feel like everything is okay?
There are several things. First of all, and this is something that I can always count on, music. If I'm in a bad mood, music will always make me feel just a little bit better. And some music does make me feel "powerful". When I listen to music like Bratmobile or Go Betty Go, my mood automatically changes to the better. Maybe I feel a bit angry, but I feel like I'm in charge. And to be in charge is important, just depends on what you're in charge of. The most important thing to be in charge of is yourself.
Another thing that makes me feel like things are good is friends. If I've just been at a friends or with a friend, I feel really good. I almost always feel like I've shared something important with them and that I really have some one good in my life. It's so important to remember your friends nomatter what happens, cause they're the ones who'll help you through everything.
The last thing I'll mention is love. How cliché xD but it is really a ting that can make everyone in a good mood. No one can ever feel down if they are loved and know it. To be really sleasy & even more cliché, I'll say something you'll have heard a hundred times. Spread the love! Because more then anything, love is something you can't live without. As a human being you have a need to be loved and to love. So do it! We wouldent have war if everyone had love.
And now I'll take my little hippie-ass out in the kitchen to get food.
Later loves <3